Blah, life's bitch sometimes...all the time.
written at 10:53 a.m. on 2003-01-12
This is Sunday, right? Ugh, my days haven't been right since Friday. Not right at all. You're prob. wordering what I'm talking about right? Well, this will prob. sound stupid and teengirl-ish, but you know I really don't care at this point. On Friday I got such wonderful news*SARCASM!* You see I was in English and the teacher was out, which is always fun. Cody(girl) was talking to me and she mentioned that someone(noname for the moment, sorry) had a girlfriend. And this someone I really liked and I suppose if the girl had been better then me or..no that dosen't sound right. Err, if the girl had been, well, not sleezy/skany/evil/stupid, I could prob. understand. Not like it, but understand nonetheless. But, the girl is not. And that's not jealousy/rage either, I've known that about her for a very long time and she hasen't changed. Plus, I had tried really really hard to try and get to know 'someone'. See, for me I usually can't utter a word to the guy I like but not with him. I could talk with like I talk with anybody and I guess you could say we were/are friends. And I seriously thought it was going good and that he may feel the same. Then, semesters changed and now he has a girlfriend who is essientially a bitch, no offence of course*cough, COUGH*. And of course to make things worse, on Friday I got to see the sickening sight of him and her kissing.....it was just wrong, sick and twisted and wrong. So wrong. That is why I didn't write until now, I've been slightly less here then usual. And it seems that when I'm at my lowest emotionally my driving is wonderful because Friday/Saturday it was. I just can't deal with this anymore, I need something to do besides replying everything in my head and trying to figure out what the fuck happened. I just...*sigh* I'm probably not making any since now and when that happens it usually means I should go before you all can't understand my inane babbling. So, until whenever.
written at 10:53 a.m. on 2003-01-12
This is Sunday, right? Ugh, my days haven't been right since Friday. Not right at all. You're prob. wordering what I'm talking about right? Well, this will prob. sound stupid and teengirl-ish, but you know I really don't care at this point. On Friday I got such wonderful news*SARCASM!* You see I was in English and the teacher was out, which is always fun. Cody(girl) was talking to me and she mentioned that someone(noname for the moment, sorry) had a girlfriend. And this someone I really liked and I suppose if the girl had been better then me or..no that dosen't sound right. Err, if the girl had been, well, not sleezy/skany/evil/stupid, I could prob. understand. Not like it, but understand nonetheless. But, the girl is not. And that's not jealousy/rage either, I've known that about her for a very long time and she hasen't changed. Plus, I had tried really really hard to try and get to know 'someone'. See, for me I usually can't utter a word to the guy I like but not with him. I could talk with like I talk with anybody and I guess you could say we were/are friends. And I seriously thought it was going good and that he may feel the same. Then, semesters changed and now he has a girlfriend who is essientially a bitch, no offence of course*cough, COUGH*. And of course to make things worse, on Friday I got to see the sickening sight of him and her kissing.....it was just wrong, sick and twisted and wrong. So wrong. That is why I didn't write until now, I've been slightly less here then usual. And it seems that when I'm at my lowest emotionally my driving is wonderful because Friday/Saturday it was. I just can't deal with this anymore, I need something to do besides replying everything in my head and trying to figure out what the fuck happened. I just...*sigh* I'm probably not making any since now and when that happens it usually means I should go before you all can't understand my inane babbling. So, until whenever.
Quote, joy:
...sorry, luv. Don't have any, fresh out.